I posted this AI-generated image a few days ago on Facebook. I think it portrays my current state-of-mind pretty well. I remember being soooo excited when I got pregnant (both times!) and then, as the pregnancies neared their ends, I was over it. All I could think of was worst case scenarios. Would Caitlin have ears? (A story for another day!) Could I actually manage two children and a full-time job? (Thankfully, Caitlin was basically raising herself by the time Meghan came around!)
Today, I am sitting on the couch, at a loss of what to do. The last few days, I occupied my brain adding images to this website, but today I need a break from that. I just got a text from Meghan (Caitlin hasn’t gotten her book yet – she’s skiing this weekend.)
Yup. I agonized over my portrayal of Sigmund. Was it too harsh? Would he come off so poorly that people can’t relate to him? Would they therefore not care about the story?
I’m not so concerned with how many people actually buy the book. What I’m most worried about is whether they like it or not. Especially my family. After all, it’s their story too. I also want people to learn from the story. How did ordinary people survive the tumultuous times they found themselves in? They were not “heroes” in the truest sense of the word, but they were heroes to me. They were able to keep the family intact. They set the forces in motion that eventually became “me.”
I wrote the book so people would know. So my heroes would be remembered. Never Forget.
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